Two steps forward, and one step back. This saying aptly describes how I feel about my experience with Tremfya (guselkumab) after ten weeks. Overall I see progress. But during these seventy days I can point to a few setbacks.
When I updated two weeks ago I felt great—positive that Tremfya could take on my psoriasis single-handedly. I continued tapering cyclosporine to three 100mg pills a week (instead of my typical three pills per day). Even the atopic dermatitis stayed mostly under control.
But over the past week the psoriasis took a clear step backwards. When I looked at my skin in a full length mirror I could see an archipelago of bumps that recently emerged. When I put lotion on I could feel the hot spots breaking out on my back, legs, and arms.
Over the past week the psoriasis took a clear step backwards. When I looked at my skin in a full length mirror I could see an archipelago of bumps that recently emerged.
I felt similar setbacks in the first few weeks, but now it’s later in the treatment cycle. Ten weeks is not the endpoint to improvement with Tremfya, though I didn’t expect to take one step back at this point.
One Part of the Solution
As those lesions grew in both size and number, I became more and more depressed. Setbacks never feel good. I hate hearing how the downward trend is only a pause in a glorious future. As a person who has experienced severe flares, I dwell on the down trajectory becoming an unstoppable spiral downward.
What broke me out of this negative thought cycle? Accepting that Tremfya might only be part of the solution, not a single solution. Monotherapy is a dream I stubbornly hold onto—taking one medication that suppresses psoriasis by itself. No more phototherapy. No more pills, ointments, or steroids. One injection every eight weeks, and that’s it. The recent outbreak also broke me out this line of thinking.
Tremfya can hit clean-up or be the starting pitcher, to use a baseball analogy. But one medication, however strong or targeted, probably will not adequately do all the work. Teamwork means combination therapy—using multiple approaches, and even lifestyle changes, to face down the enemy.
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Final Dermatology Appointment
This coming Friday is my last with Dr. Maverakis at U.C. Davis Health, Dermatology. My insurance provider approved a single visit referral for the remainder of 2017. Since my next appointment falls on the first week on November, that one will be my last.
I will miss the collaboration and rapport built up with Dr. Maverakis. With more time I would want to continue experimenting with the right combination to treat psoriasis and atopic dermatitis. The ideas we generate at appointments come to fruition weeks or months later. This time, however, marks the end. No more tomorrows to return to see if we should continue a therapy, start a new one, or add one to the arsenal.
It took several months accept this change. The blow will soften if the new dermatologist works with me well. Otherwise I would consider more radical changes such as switching health insurance companies through a change in job status, or entering the Marketplace. No good options there, I’m afraid, but health comes first.
Verse of the Week
Finding Joy in Suffering (James 1:2-4)
One of the most impactful passages on how I view living with severe psoriasis comes from James. This passage came to me during a six-week stint at a psoriasis treatment center in Palo Alto, CA the summer after I graduated from high school.
Almost thirty years later I see the wisdom in allowing life’s circumstances, even the unpleasant ones, to positively influence my heart and character. Nothing’s wasted, I like to say.
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.